Well..i do not knw hw to describe myself.. bt for sure, i have an attitude problem. Always do or say things without thinking and can be sarcastic at times.
All in all, i'm a hard nut to crack apart from always being at sixes and sevens :)
Friday, October 23, 2009
Yesterday's sci practical was fine though i screwed up a little.. but, that wasn't the thing.. Someone trusted me to back away from this person. I was really doing well there but towards the last few minutes, i ruined it. In fact, i started a conversation with this person. Now this someone no longer trust me. In fact never!Now she doesn't see me as her close friend anymore. pfft.. -.-" It's my fault anyways. She's a really good friend. She keeps on giving me chances countless times and yesterday was truly my last chance. I'm nothing in her eyes now. Wether i like it or not i can't do anything about it. I really hate myself. I'm such a very bad person. Well let me list it out why i say that..
- i keep changing friends. When i'm bored with that person i found myself finding another new friend.
- i'm a hypocrite
- i backstabbed my friends.
- i always say or do without thinking.
- i seldom keep my friends interest at heart.
- i'm always selfish.
- i'm a stubborn person.
- i'm always sarcastic.
- i'm sensitive and always get worked up easily..
Whoaa!! that much?! It's funny huh? i hated such people but here i am being like that. I really should put a stop to this fast! I'm desperate to change for the better. I've seen my friends changed for the better. If they can do it..i can too. I'm so looking forward to this. Reasons why i'm doing this is to gain back her trust and of course to be a better person.
"I have accepted fear as a part of life - specifically the fear of change. I have gone ahead despite the pounding in the heart that says: turn back..."
~ Erica Jong