Well..i do not knw hw to describe myself.. bt for sure, i have an attitude problem. Always do or say things without thinking and can be sarcastic at times.
All in all, i'm a hard nut to crack apart from always being at sixes and sevens :)
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Finally..eng and maths papers were OVER!! left my sci.. *sigh.. i screwed up my maths paper 2..really hope for a miracle now from God..
Tuesday night talked with Fyre and Rezeira about China. Guess what?, cats and dogs which was supposed to be kept as pets, they killed and eat them! I vomitted when i saw the video at youtube.. uggh.. SICK PPL!!..
Wednesday was the worst day of my life!
Firstly, maths paper 2 was friggin hard!.. Right after the paper, tears welled up in my eyes.. I swear there wasn't enough time to finish the paper.. *sigh*sigh*.. totally crushed my dreams in getting a B3/4 for it.. U're right Rezeira..maths paper 2 was like a bullet that killed us all!! argghh.. Paper 1 on the other hand, gave me lots of hope..and in less than 24 hours, 2 1/2 hours to be exact!, my hope shattered.. pfft.. I shan't talk about it anymore.. its already over.. Now just need to work hard for my sci papers next week..
In addition to all that, i lost my darling LG KF350. Ice cream phone!! It was a gift from my parents earlier this year cos i wanted it badly.. the phone was with me for only 7 months! ugh.. irritating much.. erm.. yea yea..i know it was my own fault for carrying a transparent bag to school.. Whoever took it..i wish u'll be punished severely by God! Everyone knew that stealing is a bad thing..yet that person did it.. 1st thing 1st..why must it be me? What wrong have i done??.. I don't remember making any enemies in that school.. *sigh* My dad said its 'kifarat'.. Maybe God is preparing something big and better for me.. Even Ris said that.. I hope its true.. I miss my phone though..cos i'm not used to pass a day without messaging my darling friends.. pff..
"I know that God is fair. That's why, what goes around, comes around."
Friday, October 23, 2009
Yesterday's sci practical was fine though i screwed up a little.. but, that wasn't the thing.. Someone trusted me to back away from this person. I was really doing well there but towards the last few minutes, i ruined it. In fact, i started a conversation with this person. Now this someone no longer trust me. In fact never!Now she doesn't see me as her close friend anymore. pfft.. -.-" It's my fault anyways. She's a really good friend. She keeps on giving me chances countless times and yesterday was truly my last chance. I'm nothing in her eyes now. Wether i like it or not i can't do anything about it. I really hate myself. I'm such a very bad person. Well let me list it out why i say that..
- i keep changing friends. When i'm bored with that person i found myself finding another new friend.
- i'm a hypocrite
- i backstabbed my friends.
- i always say or do without thinking.
- i seldom keep my friends interest at heart.
- i'm always selfish.
- i'm a stubborn person.
- i'm always sarcastic.
- i'm sensitive and always get worked up easily..
Whoaa!! that much?! It's funny huh? i hated such people but here i am being like that. I really should put a stop to this fast! I'm desperate to change for the better. I've seen my friends changed for the better. If they can do it..i can too. I'm so looking forward to this. Reasons why i'm doing this is to gain back her trust and of course to be a better person.
"I have accepted fear as a part of life - specifically the fear of change. I have gone ahead despite the pounding in the heart that says: turn back..."
~ Erica Jong
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Believe it or not.. its 11+ nw.. and left a few more mins before i report to school for my Olvl sci prac exam.. URGHH!! i don't think i'm ready.. IM SOOOOO NERVOUS!!..I wonder how my unni did.. I think by now she's in the detention room till the shift 4 studnts entered.. pfft.. -.-" God..i now pray to u may the paper be easy..
"Doing your best is more important than being the best."
~Anonymous
*hmm..i shall do my best then.. :)*
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Ughh.. tomorrow's my sci practical paper!! I'm nervous. Time really flies this year. I mean like..it felt that just yesterday my parents gt me enrolled into this private school. And now i'm already sitting for my O lvls AGAIN!!.. Don't you think it's too fast?! Gosh!..i really need to do well this year. Books are my bestfriends now.. really.. *sigh*sigh*sigh*Putting tt aside..someone's itouch has alr arrived!! heee *^.^*
i miss my unni badly.. -.-" ..I admit i did her wrong..n i regret it a whole lot.. ~.~
"unni, i'm sorry.."
Even if you are on the right track, you'll get run over if you just sit there!
~ Will Rogers
*hmm..its not too late for me thn.. heee.. ;)*
Today's my last day in school. And i can't believe that it has already over. The lovely friends i met and the caring teachers i spent my time with in that school..those memories shall never be forgotten.
I still remember how i dread going to a private school to repeat my O levels. I was afraid of not being able to adapt cos the moment i stepped into class, everyone seems like a stranger to me.
But now, even though it'll never happen, i wished for just another day in school. *sigh*
My dear friends and teachers, i'll miss you guys! keep in touch alright? :)
"Goodbyes are not forever.
Goodbyes are not the end.
They simply mean I'll miss you
Until we meet again! ."
~ Author Unknown
I still remember how i dread going to a private school to repeat my O levels. I was afraid of not being able to adapt cos the moment i stepped into class, everyone seems like a stranger to me.
But now, even though it'll never happen, i wished for just another day in school. *sigh*
My dear friends and teachers, i'll miss you guys! keep in touch alright? :)
"Goodbyes are not forever.
Goodbyes are not the end.
They simply mean I'll miss you
Until we meet again! ."
~ Author Unknown